When someone really cares for you but makes a mistake and you end it do they just say ok?  Or would they at the very least say I'm sorry for messing up?  Thats's what I thought too.  I made the mistake of believing that someone cared for me.  They made the mistake multiple times and I ended the relationship.  Their only response was ok.

I was soo stupid to believe they really cared for me.  It makes me wonder if everything they said to me was a lie. Every text message, every instant message.  If all of the things they said to me about themself was true or just to make me stay with them and believe them.

I cared so much for them and had such a good time that now I am just amazed that I fell for all of the lies.  I must be one of the most gullible people ever.  At least I know for next time.  Never believe anything you hear, everything is just a lie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R2ghByYkfcE

This is what he made me for Christmas.  It is clips from my favorite TV show paired with our song.  I loved it so much it made me cry.  Up until now it has been on my myspace profile but I cannot have it there anymore.

He is an ex-boyfriend.  I broke up with him after he told me he loved me.  I treated him horribly but somehow we still remained friends.  Close friends even.  Until now I have not questioned our friendship.  I have just gone with it because he is one of my closest friends.  Now I wonder if I should have.

I value our friendship a great deal but I value his happiness more.  Lately I have wondered if being my friend has stopped him from being able to move on and be happy.

Wiggle, I am sorry for making this public.  I purposefully tried to limit the information so that most people would not know it was you.  Granted putting my xmas gift kinda defeats the purpose but I do not want to lose it.  I really do love it.

I really want you to be happy, Wiggle.  With all my heart I want that.  But I know that I can never make you happy.  Maybe for a little while I would be able to, but not in the long run.  So please, if being my friend is preventing you from moving on let me know.  I do not wish to lose your friendship but I would rather you be happy and not talking to me, then miserable and my best friend.

I love him so much.  He sends me the sweetest text messages that just make my heart melt.  He is always sweet and kind.  Respecting me in my decisions, never pushing me to bend to his will.  At times he can be a goof and a gaming nerd but I love him all the more for it.  He is so great and soooo very sweet.  There are times when he can annoy me but I can rarely stay annoyed for long.  He will say or *do* something that makes it impossible to be angry or upset with him.  I know that I anger him as well.  I am amazed that he can endure being with me at all.  He even has made inquiries into moving down here to be close to me.  I do not deserve him.  He is so sweet and I....well I just can't ever deserve him.

There was this girl I knew in 6th grade.  We were inseperable.  Then her parents got a divorce and she had to move.

She came back in 8th grade but I didn't really know her anymore so we only hung out occasionally.

We went to different high schools and lost contact, especially after I moved.

Shortly after I moved back I became friends with another old friend from middle school, Lindsey.  Lindsey and I got really close and were almost always together.  Then Lindsey got a bf and we separated.  She found me around this time.

We got close and one day after she got upset I heard from Lindsey and decided to introduce them.  We had a boy bashing session and they got along well.  For a while it was all three of us..... then she started to cause Lindsey and me to drift apart.  I went away for a couple months and they got even closer than before.  Sarah still talked to me but Lindsey and I rarely spoke.

When I got back I got to be friends with my old best friend again Lindsay (not the same girl, a different one, and yes it can be confusing).  Up until now Lindsay had hated Lindsey and her.  I was trying to get Lindsay to be more open.  I wanted all of my friends to get along and be friends with one another.  Lindsay said she couldn't try with Lindsey but she would try with her.  I arranged for us all to go to the movies.

Lindsay and her really hit it off and we all began to hang out together, well all except Lindsey (Lindsey was kinda in her own world and joined mine only occasionally).  Anyways, a couple weeks went by and Lindsay and her started doing things on their own and excluding me.

Then, randomly, they both stopped talking to me.  Didn't answer my calls or texts.  I couldn't get a hold of them at all.  I would ask why and still get nothing.

A few weeks went by and she asked me if I wanted to go to lunch.  Having missed them and still curious on why they stopped talking I said sure.  We went to lunch and she apologized and said she had wanted to be alone and depressed and Lindsay had been trying to cheer her.  I said it had really hurt that they had ignored me and she said she knew and that it wouldn't happen again.  I warned her that if it did all relationships with her would be severed and never re-established.  She understood.

For a few days everything was ok.  Still didn't hear from Lindsay but her and I were like we used to be.  Then it all happened again.

I know it was my fault for allowing her to do all this.  I take full blame for that but I also blame her.

Lindsey and I are back to normal.  Like we were before she came into the picture.  Lindsay and I, who had been friends for 18 years, rarely speak anymore.  We haven't hung out since before she was introduced.


My cousin during all of this has been keeping tabs on her.  My cousin, Lissa, would interfere with her occasionally.  Yesterday was Lissa's birthday, we had a party at Lissa's house.  Lissa invited her.  She brought her sister.  Her sister was cool and got along, she acted like nothing had happened.  She rolled her eyes almost the entire evening and tried to become friends with Lissa.

Today she tried adding me on myspace.